Questions

And there are times when the questions seem rhetorical, like an unsolvable puzzle with its pieces missing and picture worn away.

As I stand upon this precipice, a million questions fill me and drain me. I teeter.

I know Prufrock and his love song. Unwillingly, I follow his footsteps as if dragged.

They say its a two way street, walking one way allows for the other to walk the other. Yet, I've walked this street before, hoping, hoping. And as if by a bell, its promises break. I fall. I shatter.

Yet, here, again, should I walk this road?

Crazy and irrational, says Woody Allan, but we need the eggs.

Maybe, I'll read the road signs carefully this time.

Happiness

Ever do something you know you can do, and then just went out and did it marvelously?

I had an interview today with a company, and I'm pretty comfortable with interviews. I thank God for being with me all the way on this one, because I went in and pretty much nailed it.

=)

The manager hired me on the spot.

Enough Already

Did I miss something? It seems as if Yahoo! News can only headline a nitpicking journalist for the Olympic games. It is starting to disgust me. He writes these articles as if he was trying to find some way to find negative press coverage for the Olympic games. His tone and his style speaks as if to say that China owes him something. I really despise this writer. I wonder if he only writes these incendiary remarks to generate hits for his page?

There have been three articles, in the 3 days of the Olympic games, which feature something about China being fake. I read them all. The writer chooses not to focus on the Olympians who have trained their whole lives for this one moment, but what does he choose to focus on? The fact that the Olympic opening ceremony, a show, is well... a show? Is he going to next point out that Yao Ming just looks huge because of the child he was carrying and that we have, once again, been faked out by clever showmanship?

What's worse are some of the comments made by people who read the articles. Some have whole heartedly bought into what they read. It's disgusting. There was even a comment on there that looked like an off topic essay about communist China and the evils of its communistic ways. Another comment began with "I had never been interested in the olympics but...". I think the writer has tricked people to having negative sentiments about the olympics by concentrating on such petty details. It perhaps is a worse sin than what he accused China of committing.

I used to be a little ashamed at being Asian and Chinese. I will the first to admit that Communist China doesn't do everything right. Yet, now I am more ashamed at being American and proud to be Chinese! Before we start nit picking at the little things that China does to make a show more entertaining, how about we cry out against what our own US government has done to fake us? If I remember correctly, we are still in a war with Iraq because our reason for going there was to find weapons of mass destruction, as reported to us by the CIA and White House? I believe we are being petty.

Let's enjoy the Olypians, the proud athletes of the games. Go Michael Phelps! Go team USA! Go team China! Make us proud!

Let the Games Begin

As the Olympic Games start getting into full swing, I find myself caught up in the wonderful competition. Never has one event symbolized so much. I admire and respect all the atheletes who have trained so hard and worked so hard to perfect the events that they do. When, I see them perform on that world stage, I feel like I am watching the epitome of human spirit. Needless to say, watching them has become an incredibly uplifting experience.

The Olympic Games truly inspire me, despite all the politics surrounding and leading up to it. When, I see the athletes go with all their passion for Olympic Gold, I realize what a sad event it was to have protested and extinguished the Olympic Touch. I am not saying I agree with China's policies, but I also do not agree the actions taken by the protesters.

The Olympics are not about them.

It is about the athletes. We should honor and respect that this is their stage. In their competition, they symbolize the very struggles of nation against nation, of policy against policy. They are the pride of each nation. The Olympics was first created so that nations did not have to go to war, but rather settle their disputes in fierce, but nonviolent competition. We should always remember what the Olympics stand for, before we, the bystander citizens of the nations, start taking it upon ourselves to speak out, or act out. It is not our spotlight to steal. Let the competitors do the talking. The torch must always be lit. For it is that very torch that symbolizes the necessity of the games and the needlessness of warfare.

A Desire for Romance

It has been a long while since I really wanted to date anyone. I sorta had mixed feelings and thought about things a lot. Eventually, I realized perhaps I've just been avoiding the situation altogether, fearing the recurrence of old pains.

In China for boys to act this way is almost shameful. I want my confident me back. It's odd that I can be confident about everything else, yet questions of romance I would rather hide from.

No more.

I want to fall in love again. I want to feel like I'm not quite sure what I'm doing, and just have fun. I want to find a girl who isn't afraid to show that I'm special to her. She can do as she pleases and make tons of guys fall in love with her. Yet, at the end of the day, she won't be afraid to call me hers. That seems right to me.

And of course... I will give her the world.