Where?

I suppose I only come to this blog when I have thoughts that I cannot openly talk to other people about.

Originally I had told at least two people about this blog. Yet, I suppose it fell into such disarray that no one ever checks here anymore. Thus, with the illusion of being a public blog, I speak as if there are people listening, but I reveal much more of my weaknesses here. The paradox here allows probably the only entry into my world. This weakness in my defenses I gladly put out, in hope of some unselfish person to walk along. Yet, in my mind, there are very few people like that in the world.

I know that even the nice people in the world have their own agendas. They all want something from you. At least, that is the way I feel. Though, I never wish to proclaim that I am the best there is out there. I truly do want to see my actions and thoughts reciprocated. There should be, somewhere out there, someone like me. Someone who constantly thinks for the well being of those around him/her and knows how to adapt or stress the situation to bend it towards a favorable scenario for those said people.

Yet, perhaps some people are right. I should let go. Perhaps I do too much. I just want to be a good person.

However, I always feel so alone.

There are only a few people in this world who does not take my presence for granted. If only they can remain at my side.

I'm tired of thinking for people. I wonder if someone will think for me on just even a little thing. Even if someone wanted to know how my day went, just in hopes to see if they can smooth out any wrinkle that my day may have had.

Where would a person like this exist?